~~..SpiceUpYourLife..~~

this weekend turns out agak badly kot..im hurting so many people this weekend and I'm so regret i do it..i wish i can turn back time and undo all the things I've done..but that's impossible rite..to my dear,its been unfortunate week for me for not being able to see u my love..how i miss you so bad rite now..its hurt me so bad wat u did last thursday..but ist ok,i know wat condition wat we are in..im always wondering where are we rite now or where i am rite now..is there any hope for us but wat i see only the darkness i meet..

please sayang,im bagging u to comeback to me one day..my heart is still want and love u..maybe sometimes im losing hope and faith but the most important thing is i never quit and give up my love to u..its still for u and for u only sayang...so comeback to me one day sayang,i still can wait for u...

I Love U So Much, Miss S and Its Unconditionally....

IM HURT..IM HURT..IM HURT..that's one fact im feeling rite now..so sressfull...MASYAALLAH...

okayyyyy..the workdays are over for this wee.sunday is off so now can go back home to homes..hahaha..but on thing disturb me a little is why suddenly my hearts start to crumble?what my heart is worry to?what my heart looking for?why suddenly it become like this?please,stop doing this to me..i dun want another setback..stop!

ahhh..maybe the journey ni nanti bleh buat aku ok kot..well hopefully lah kan..hehehe..ahhhh,aku nak tenang n tenteram...

3 weeks and will it still be counting?..........

hurmm...its been 3 weeks already and still have the pain for wat happen dat day..the 'bombshell' drop in the perfect time at the perfect place..im still keep asking myself nowdays what exactly went wrong dat day..wat exactly happen until she decided to make that decission..is it true wat she said after that?is it true she didnt know wat's the feeling now?is it true she push me away by saying to find another girl?is it true the whole thing dat she already said to me?

now, wat happend to the previous 'sweet statement' she told me before?is it just a temporary feelings or we can just say 'oh,it just a fling'..its a damn thing if that exactly the real situation is..so b$^&#*&t !!how can i imagine that was a fake since everything that been said be4 is so real and make me feel being needed,being miss,being care and being love..the feelings so real but why now suddenly is everything is walking the opposite way?why?why?why? after she made me needed her,made me want her,made me miss her,made me stay with her,made me only for her, made me crazy in love with her and now suddenly "i dont know is that my true feelings"..hoh, is that so?! while my feelings it true and my love is unconditionally..

now wat else i can do?or wat i should do?still holding on and stay or take my guts and leave?please GOD, show me the way..i know rite now,my feelings towards her is still strong...im begging YOU,please help me...please...i know i cant live without her though..

aduyaiii...aku dah agak dah,tiada apa2 respon nie misti sumthing is not rightlah kot and when dgr suaranya pun aku dah rasa lemah dah,dier lagilah annn..sesungguhnya aku care sgt kat dier so mmglah aku akan rasa mcm nie..tapi apakan daya aku,nothing i can do except hoping everything will turns out well and fine for her..dear GOD, i want her to be succes..pelase,im begging YOU to help her..i will keep pray for her..i want the best for her...wat more i can do?please,show me the way..

kesian kat dier..from wat i see,she's been through hard time today..im so worried but as the condition apply,i dont know how she's doing but i hope so much its not so bad as i would think..i hope so much also everything will turns out well for her as i want her to be success as much she want it too..as for now, i can only give u my pray and my YASSIN..other than that,u know already wat an...so, its now or never so go out there and work it out..im always here supporting u..GooD LucK Sayang....

monday sickness is very irritating...nak buat apa pun rasa lembab jer..tambah hati nie tak penahnyer nak duk diam,ada jer gegaran yg nak dilaksanakan..dah2 lah tue,berentilah bertindak balas dengan benda2 pasir nie...need more motivation nie..keep it up pau...*sigh

*sigh...after one weeks not thinking about job,now here i am in a office,work..arhhh, no motivation at all to start a day like dis,especially wen comes to work..seriusly evertything looks dull and bored..where all the excitment gone,i reaky dont know..please god,bring me back to live..please bring me back my smile and laugh..its all gone now..the same thing happen to me last 6years now seems it repeated again..its all happen again..do i need another year to recover from all of this?...

hurmm..a new status yg buat aku pening skang nie..for who that things for is i realy dont know..why things can turn to be like dis..why and why and why?i keep question that question..sumtimes it not proper to ask that question tho...i realy dont know what to think but i keep thinking, so wat the hell i am thinking about?..hahaha..weird huh..

huh,its over already my leave..damn,apa je aku buat minggu nie,seriusly aku pun tak tau..melanguk je kot kebanyakkan masa..now i need to return back to work..arghhhhh,seriously my head cant take it..im seriously not so in a good mood or motivated to go to work..damn,wat the hell happen to me now..whrer's all gone?!is it because of that............*sigh

hahaha..one thing yg patut aku buat yg dah aku rancang nak buat akhirnya aku lupa sbb pikir sgt psl pasir nie..yg paling best,sumer kejer yg patut aku buat time cuti nie pun langsung tak sentuh pun..hahaha,klakar kan..now i get this news yg realy shock but i wish i can spell this word,

"my dear, its ok..i know ur condition so well,i am and im realy do..i said to u earlier,wat u want i'll do it for u..if this wat u want so its my pleasure for me to do it..im not going anywhere so dun wuri bout me..i thought i never give u pressure..so if i did,im so sorry k..i never thought ive done dat..bout that new news u have its realy shock me too by the way..i know how's it feel when u've already plan ur work but seems suddenly there's a change and it looks like u can screw up..but still, keep beliving urself my dear..im still hoping u'll do ur best..i dont know,im just have that feelings about u that everything's gonna be alright..im always supporting u,so go out there and rocks it..just come back to me when u r ready,i wont go anywhere maaa...i'll wait k..bubye"

pergh..dah petang mcm nie pun still tak ilang lagi feelings tue..apa kehalnyer nie...susah sgt ke nak happy skang nie..aduyai...kacauuuuu kacau...*sigh

woke up with a realy sad feelings is realy not so good i guess...its been like dis for a while now..dont know how to overcome this kinda things..it just happen when u wake up,this feeling suddenly overshadow ur emotion and next thing u know u dun want to do anything..realy frustrating and hurts so much when thinks again about wat happen lately...lama lagi ke mcm nie?