~~..SpiceUpYourLife..~~

yes...todays is complete one month the breaking up..so many changers in i see..

no more 'mama' 'babah'
no more sayang
no more wake up call
no more frequent messaging
no more frequent 'Terima Kasih Cinta' rigtone
no more lullaby
no more bedtime story
and it seems..
no string attrached...

u see this is something i cant bear to handle with my best..i keep asking why is this happen..why i cant handle it with my best?is it true im so weak and not strong enough for her?i know i cant ask this and that because this is ALLAH SWT jobs..this is what HIS doing..so i shouldn't ask much and try to face it like a man..a real man who are strong enough to bear it..but seriously the pain is so unbearable..the wound so deeeeeeep that i cant imagine how bad the pain..its still bleeding..

i just cant stop thinking that she has a new interest now rather than me..is it necessary to able feel that?am i being throw away slowly from her life untill the day comes she will say that she didn't need babah anymore?wow,this something i cant imagine..when that day come,i'll be tearing into into pieces i guess..

YA ALLAH,SELAMATKANLAH DIRIKU..AKU HANYA MEMOHON UNTUK MENIKMATI SEDIKIT KETENANGAN SUPAYA AKU BOLEH BERFIKIR DAN BERKERJA DAN SETERUSNYA MENJALANI KEHIDUPAN SEPERTI BIASA..SESUNGGUHNYA AKU ALAMINYA DAHULU DAN KAU TELAH KEMBALIKANNYA KEPADA KU SEMULA..TERIMA KASIH YA ALLAH,KAU MEMBAWANYA SEMULA UNTUK MENYEDARKAN AKU BAHAWASANYA KAU ADALAH TUAN SEGALA UMAT DI MUKA BUMI INI...AKU BERJANJI AKAN TERUS BERIBADAT KE ARAH MU...AKU MEMOHON PADAMU YA ALLAH,KEMBALIKANLAN SENYUMANKU..LEMBUTKANLAH HATINYA,BUKALAH HATINYA UNTUKKU..SEMOGA ADA KEBAHAGIAAN MENANTI DI AKHIRANNYA..AMIN