~~..YES, IM STILL HURTING..~~
this past few weeks being an excellent period i guess..i manage to smile again,to have a laugh again..although its not so great but atleast 1% its coming from the heart..but sumhow sudenly it stuck again when lighting pain strike back..owh its sooo huts sudenly..the pain i felt before it feel again..i wonder how long i'll be like dis..but i keep on move on,marching on,keep my head helds high no matter wat..
its sooo coincedence why suddenly 'that' pic coming out of nowhere..why sudenly ada plak org nak komen kat gambar tue..WHY?WHY?..do u guys want to remind me about the engagement?! DO U?!im already feels some sort of unease feeling bout that and trying so hard to fight the pain, and now it reminds me again about the past...owh mannnnn, im not so dat strong lahhhhhhh..
but i know, its my fault actually..im still to far from ALLAH, to far as i did giving up my life coz i dont know wat to do anymore..im keeping feeling the pain no matter wat i do..am i have to keep the distance so i wont be feeling anything..and i know,everything is depending on me..only me have the answer, no one else..the cut inside my heart will be deeper as long as i allowed it,so i need to stop isnt it?but its not that easy..why is it so hard to realize and accept that those things is in the trash already?!
YA ALLAH, HAMBAMU INI TIDAK PERNAH CUBA UNTUK MENDEKATI-MU DENGAN BERSUNGGUH-SUNGGUH..ADAKAH ADA RUANG UNTUK AKU MERASAKAN KEBAHAGIAAN YANG ENGKAU PERNAH PINJAMKAN KEPADA KU SEBELUM INI..MASIH ADAKAH SENYUMAN UNTUK KU,MASIHKAH ADA SINAR UNTUK KU..BERIKANLAH HAMBAMU YANG HINA INI PETUNJUK, TAUFIK DAN HIDAYAH-MU..MOGA AKU TIDAK TERSASAR JAUH DARI-MU..
this past few weeks being an excellent period i guess..i manage to smile again,to have a laugh again..although its not so great but atleast 1% its coming from the heart..but sumhow sudenly it stuck again when lighting pain strike back..owh its sooo huts sudenly..the pain i felt before it feel again..i wonder how long i'll be like dis..but i keep on move on,marching on,keep my head helds high no matter wat..
its sooo coincedence why suddenly 'that' pic coming out of nowhere..why sudenly ada plak org nak komen kat gambar tue..WHY?WHY?..do u guys want to remind me about the engagement?! DO U?!im already feels some sort of unease feeling bout that and trying so hard to fight the pain, and now it reminds me again about the past...owh mannnnn, im not so dat strong lahhhhhhh..
but i know, its my fault actually..im still to far from ALLAH, to far as i did giving up my life coz i dont know wat to do anymore..im keeping feeling the pain no matter wat i do..am i have to keep the distance so i wont be feeling anything..and i know,everything is depending on me..only me have the answer, no one else..the cut inside my heart will be deeper as long as i allowed it,so i need to stop isnt it?but its not that easy..why is it so hard to realize and accept that those things is in the trash already?!
YA ALLAH, HAMBAMU INI TIDAK PERNAH CUBA UNTUK MENDEKATI-MU DENGAN BERSUNGGUH-SUNGGUH..ADAKAH ADA RUANG UNTUK AKU MERASAKAN KEBAHAGIAAN YANG ENGKAU PERNAH PINJAMKAN KEPADA KU SEBELUM INI..MASIH ADAKAH SENYUMAN UNTUK KU,MASIHKAH ADA SINAR UNTUK KU..BERIKANLAH HAMBAMU YANG HINA INI PETUNJUK, TAUFIK DAN HIDAYAH-MU..MOGA AKU TIDAK TERSASAR JAUH DARI-MU..
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