~~..SpiceUpYourLife..~~

its been a tough journey..i still cant believe that this is happening..how can it turn 180 degree turn..from being a good man from the worst 'myself' i've ever see..i just wanna be happy thats all..i've plan it but it failed big time..i know sumhow i need to recover from this quickly and safely but wat i saw,its all failed also..


i try to do absolutely everything in my power to get better but what i saw, im just stuck in the past..nothing change from that day..for 2 months of disaster,i was stuck and do nothing..just lay down and waiting to die..but than i start to move..but i just dont move,i ran..i ran hardly that i could..i ran from everything..untill one day i get so tired and exhausted so i stop..


during the stop..i look back and i realy dont like what i saw..i saw a terrible, unfixed, and messed up life of mine...MASYAALLAH..aku tinggal semua tue?what have i done?i ran away from my problem n responsibility?


than i realize, i am no better man..i am no good man..i am no man that can be called a man..i'm just a loser...such a loser..i failed everything because of one woman!but i got no intention to blaming her..she done nothing wrong, its all on me...


YA ALLAH,LAYAKKAH AKU DIMAAFKAN ATAS SEGALA DOSA DAN KESALAHAN AKU INI?